Before I Kill Myself

Validation of Life

So looking at this past Christmas I just realized that people really don't know what Christmas is and what it means.  To be able to give to those that don't have, not giving a superior gift to look better than everyone else.  Ya'll got it all wrong.  Your kid got polo, xbox, toys, jordans,etc. and its kids out here that got nothing that live within' a 5 mile radius of your home.  Now you're thinking "that's not my problem those not my kids."  I like that statement.  Lets me know you selfish off the bat.  The purpose of Christmas is not to buy your own people a bunch of shit it's to buy people who need things that don't have.  All I saw was I got my mama this, I got that, I bought them this, etc.  Only word I see is "I"

The New York Telephone Company recorded a detailed research of telephone conversations once in order to find out which word was the most frequently used. You guessed it: the most frequently used word was the personal pronoun "I." "I." "I." It was used 3,900 times in 500 recorded telephone calls. "I." "I." "I.

-Dale Carnegie

This leads me to one conclusion "We got validation of life all fucked up."

Validation of Life is NOT

-What you have.

-Who you fucked.

-How many people follow you.

-Who you can gossip or talk about.

-Who you can make look smaller than you.

-How you can one up the next person.

This is the kind of person that may appear ok, but inside is hurting.  You make yourself valid off of things that this time next year won't matter or will be lost.  You can't base your life on what you have acquired.  Never base your happiness on anything that can burn in a fire and doesn't require a funeral after.

Validation of Life is:

-Helping someone and never bringing it up again.

-Telling someone how to better not belittle.

-Loving the parent that was never there.

-Forgiving the person who curses you.

-Saving the life of a condemn.

-Respecting everyone regardless of who you are.

-Not cussing someone out even when you have a good comeback and you been wanting to say it for a long time.

I say all this to say ya'll got Christmas and life all wrong.  Wanna know why I will never put someone on blast?  Cause I don't do that whether I like you or not.  The Bible doesn't say don't judge it says you will be judged with the same measure you judge others.  Keep that in mind when you get to the point when you need someone and instead of lending a hand they trash you behind your back.  I didn't see Christmas this year I saw selfishness.  My personal Christmas was dropping off toys to a bunch of kids that if I wouldn't have stopped by would not have gotten shit.  You ever pull up to a home and see kids waiting on you cause if you don't pull up they got nothing?  I saw it.  It's sad.  You should do more for others than you do for yourself during Christmas and that does not consist of mother, father, children, cousins etc.  My family ain't get no super gifts cause in all honesty they don't need shit.  My mom can do without a chanel white watch this year.  It won't kill her.  My dad can do without a $100 bottle of cologne.  Trust me he not short cologne and clothes.

I'm not mad at you.  People are selfish by nature, but why be a blessing to people that already have?  You would rather turn a blinds eye and in the same breath say you love the Lord and God etc. etc.  First off, I ain't shit.  Hell I drunk the whole weekend, but I made it appoint to celebrate Christmas as it was intended.  I said I would do all of that and not tell anyone.  Just play Santa and go home, but when my social networking is filled with kids who honestly look like they didn't need shit.  I don't have kids, but when I do they will never get more than kids that don't have.  They will remember Christmas in the car with their father handing out gifts.  They may not understand at that time, but I will die knowing they knew what Christmas really is not what they want it to be.

Lewis Hendrick Williams III

Saving the Black Race Vol. 1: Before I Agree to this Raw Dick!

The Mis-Education of Lewis Hendrick Williams III

I was told that this is how you do it and that is the only way to do it or you will never make it in life.  It's hard to come to grips 30 years of my life wasted operating in a programmed society and here I am programmed with the rest.  Not sure if it’s a cultural thing or a knowledge thing, but I don’t fault my mother for training me to play it safe, hell that’s what mothers do.  My Pastor told me years ago “You have a serious issue with rebellion that you need to deal with.” No offense to my Pastor, but this time he was wrong.  My issue with authority has been questionable my whole life, but my rebellion to go against it is my blessing.  I don’t want to get into a drawn out conspiracy theory no one cares about, but bottom line we are programmed a certain way to keep certain industries  stable with money for a long time.  Problem is if you pay attention those industries are crumbling and getting exposed around us.  I left a cubicle and thought “From now on I’m doing shit my way. Whoever doesn’t like it can kiss my ass.”  That day I realized I will utilize action and not excuses.  Below is my new rules of operation and how I do it my way:

1. Do what makes me happy at the expense or harm of no one.

I am risky with everything I say or do, but I make sure it’s never at the expense of someone else’s feelings.  The decisions we make affect others.  I never want to be the cause of someone’s hurt.  That’s not fair to them that my happiness makes them sad.  That would make me no better than Osama Bin Laden or George Bush. 

2. Give up everything to start new.

I gave away my bed, TV, sofa, clothes etc.  When I moved I knew if I would have brought that stuff into my new apartment I would have never bought new.  I slept on the floor.  Funny how people laughed at me, but I would rather be on the floor working for myself then in a bed reporting to someone.  We are told to hold on to worldly possessions like we can never get it again.  Any and everything can be obtained many times.  Ghandi says “Practice detachment.” “Blessings can’t flow through the clutter” –Suze Orman

3.  I’m not mad at anyone.

When I hear about people's anger and what they are mad at it’s a shame.  He says she says shit is never a reason to hold a grudge.  You minimize your life when you hold a beef or grudge especially for the shit most people hold grudges for.  I hear the talk about me more than often, but the way I see it “Unless you come to me and tell me directly it doesn’t exist.” You will never see me vent on FB or Twitter about someone.  That’s what children do.  If I feel some kind of way about what you have done to me I will come see you.  I will come see you alone and unarmed.  I don’t need extra men or a group of people to boost my morale.  I stand alone and I handle what’s mine alone.  Beefing and grudges just assure that you are not ready to go to the next level in life cause you still mad at shit that happened last year, but you expect a blessing though.

4.  I judge no one.

I judge no one.  In the end I don’t know your past for why you are the way you are.  People need to come to grips that all people are not wired the same.  For years I thought a rapist took sex from women for the pleasure of sex.  Recently I found out rapist take sex to control not for the pleasure of sex so I’m thinking “Why the hell would you ruin your life for something you can buy?” But the reason I don’t understand is because I’m not a rapist.  Same goes for pedophiles. My first thought is “What man in his right mind wants to have sex with a child?” but the fact is he doesn’t have a right mind.  It’s easy to judge because that is not your issue, but the fact is these people have an issue. I hear men judge gay men, but the way I see it “If you like men like I like women I’m having a hard time judging you.” Now I’m not saying any of this is ok, but understand we are all not wired the same and what works for you doesn’t work for others.  If I placed their issue in your body you would have a whole new concept of understanding.  Another thing we should know about condemning is in the other party’s eyes they are never wrong so why bother? All it causes is a heated conversation and adds an addition to the list of more people that don’t like you.  The flesh makes you feel gratified when you call someone out or tell someone about themselves, but it’s a myth.  In actuality you just fueled hate.  If they don’t see how they were wrong you just wasted your time.

5.  Dreams cost so spend it.

If I told you to bring your dream to life cost $2000.00 you would say “damn that’s too much” or “I can’t get it done cheaper?” I have a website company (GotWebsites. me) and I talk to people everyday about their dream and most have 100 excuses as to why they can’t make their dream happen or move it forward, but yet you say it’s your dream.  Now let’s do the math. You have spent well over that much money on a slew of things that didn’t do shit for your dream.  Here it is in plain English for those of you who don’t get it “NO ONE WILL EVER PAY YOU ENOUGH. YOU WILL NEVER LIVE A LIFE OF HAPPINESS. YOU WILL NEVER OWN WHAT YOU WANT TO OWN, YOU WILL NEVER BE RICH OR WEALTHY IF YOU DO NOT DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY.”  I always hear about the wants and needs of people and honestly it’s a sad conversation cause in actuality you will never have it.  You work a job or a career that will never pay you what you want or need to live great.  It’s the illusion you bought to play it safe, but it’s not real.  The sooner you stop lying to yourself the sooner you can actually live well.  And if you ask “What if I spend the money and it doesn’t work?” just keep in mind you have spent the money on a lot of shit in your life and guess what? None of it worked.

6.  A chapter a day keeps ignorance at bay.

So I read a chapter a day in a knowledgeable book.  The problem with most people is that we don’t read and if we do its bullshit that will never help us out in the long run.  My clients like me because I know a lot.  Gordon Gecko in the first Wall Street movie with Charlie Sheen said “Information is the #1 commodity.”  The reason you are afraid to read certain kinds of books because it will expose that you have been miseducated.  The way money and progression works and how you think money and progression works is 2 different things. Always remember: Out of the top 10 billionaires only 3 have degrees and they only have 1 degree.  No masters, no doctors, just 1 degree. 

7.  Do well by your people.

Take care of your family. I’m not saying endure their issues or take on their problems, but lend a helping hand, but not at the expense of enabling them.  If you got lazy cousins that need money then no, but if you have cousins that are trying and are short money then yes.

8.   Circle shift.

We often use the term friends loosely.  From what I have seen most people are not your friends it’s just a title to call them because you don’t know what else to call them.  I had to change my circle because being messy, fucking hoes, and fronting like you have money never suited me well at all.  I would rather actually put in the work to have.  The way I see it “If I can’t call you for $250 because I lost my wallet I’m in the wrong circle.”  Broke brings broke and rich brings rich.  A lot of times you can’t move forward because of the people around you.  They talk broke, act broke, do broke things that’s not ok.  If that’s how they want to operate that’s fine, but I don’t have to stay and endorse this shit. I’m out.  I had someone say to me “White folk aren’t helping us out.” Sad part is I have heard this too many times from too many black people and it’s the most ignorant bullshit I have ever heard out of a black person's mouth.  I have white clients and white people that give me infinite info as long as I ask.  I am starting a liquor delivery service and I sat with a white man that not only gave me all info and more, but gave me his personal cell if he needed more then told me “The moment you open I’m your first order.” I hear this because it is the talk amongst ignorant ass circles. If you choose ignorance that’s on you but I won’t take part.

9.  If I don’t start it I will never know.  If you build it they will come.

I can have dreams of having tons of things, but if I never start I will never know.  I tell everyone to just start.  I talk to people with all kinds of dreams and love to talk about it, but they will never start. Not sure if it's fear or lazy, but whatever it is get rid of that shit.  You will never get anything or anywhere not starting.  If you build it people will come.  People love to become a part of something or support something new cause that’s how they are wired.  I make sure everything I do or put out is quality so people will take it seriously and respect it.  No one supports half ass or trash. I have had a few clients say “Well I can go to Vistaprint or Wix and build a website for very cheap” and my reply is “After you build it take a look at it and tell me if it wasn’t your business would you support you.” You get what you pay for so make sure you make it right.  If it looks half ass or lacking people will look, laugh, and move on to the person that looks quality.  Presentation is everything.

10.  The Get it Done Factor

Just get it done.  Believe it or not this is hard for most people.  I have actually had to fire some people for lack of getting it done.  The problem is in their eyes they were doing well. I don’t fault them though. With some people operating half ass or when they feel like it works for them.  There are success and truth in getting it done.  There is great reward in finishing what you started.  Don’t wait for a hook up or someone you know.  If they are not moving fast enough then pay the money and get it done.  You can not always operate on a low end because you are waiting on someone.  Your success does not depend on another man.  It is no one elses fault that you are behind.  My back up has a back up cause I am huge on starting and closing.  Your success relies solely on your ability to get it done.  Here is my letter to one guy:

Dear So and So,

I have waited a week and a half for a change that I sent to India and got done in less than 12 hours.  My apologies, but it's best we end out business relationship.  It's not that I have anything against you its your ability to get it done that I have to make this decision.  From a business standpoint your reasons for not getting it done doesn’t match the timeline of the length it took for you to not get it done.  I don’t want to say I wish you the best because that’s a lame way to leave you.  I wish you the best after you develop the skill of getting it done.  Understand that if you were proficient at getting it done I wouldn’t be writing this email.  I’m sure its not only me its other aspects of your life that you are not finished with.  You can win at life because you have the knowledge to do so, but putting off a task is what’s holding you back from reaching full potential.  Once you develop that skill and feel like you are ready email me and we can start over.

Sincerely Lewis H. Williams III

Now of course I never heard from his ass again cause most people would rather stay the same than to change cause change takes work and forces you to change your entire life completely.  I would rather uplift than condemn so regardless I left him with the necessary knowledge to win at life either way.

11.  Commitment

I was told I don’t have a girlfriend because I lack commitment.  At the same time I see people in relationships who say they do and really don’t and then it dawned on me “Where does my commitment stand in my entire life?” I had to assess where my commitment stood in life in general.  Looks like I lacked commitment in everything from going to the gym, book, etc.  My commitment lacked in all areas so I changed that.  I joined Crossfit and said “Regardless of the pain I’m in this bitch 5 days a week.” 4 months later I’m still in there 5 days a week and I now have a whole new body that surprises me every morning I’m in the mirror with no shirt on.  I also purchased plants and I am committed to watering them daily and they started from seeds now they are sprouting into full grown plants.  Commitment actually takes developing and time.  When people say they are in a committed relationship you’re lying. Unless you’re married you’re not in one.  Commitment is forever.  Just say you are exclusively dating someone at the time, but committed you are not.

12.  I’m no better.

My sister often ask me why I go to different cities and take pictures with bums and homeless people.  In all honesty I’m no better.  The moment you think your life is worth more than the next you lose yourself.  No one is more powerful than time.  We rush to take pictures with people who don’t remember us in 5 minutes for a photo that promotes them and not us.  It will get 100’s of comments that you got a pic with some one who again will not remember you after 5 minutes.  I’d rather take a pic with a guy that will atleast remember me longer than that.  I always feed them, always cloth them, always give to them.  Today you can be ok and on top, but tomorrow can tell another tell.  No one is better than living on the street.  It can happen to anyone.  I often judge people by the way they treat others.  I went on a date where the girl treated the wait staff like shit.  She never heard from me again. She texted and she called, but I can't talk to someone who takes the opportunity to treat someone who they feel is lower than them like shit every chance they get.  You’ll do me the same way if given the opportunity.  Remember this:

Time is Powerful

When a bird is alive... it eats Ants ~ When the bird is dead... Ants eat the bird!               

So... Time & Circumstances can change at any time...               

Don't devalue or hurt anyone in life.               

You may be powerful today... But Remember... Time is more powerful than You

One tree makes a million match sticks... But when the time comes...Only one match stick is needed to burn a million trees…

Be careful who you step on today cause they can have the opportunity to step on you tomorrow.

In conclusion

I literally had to re raise myself to be happy.  Forced to create the truth as I know it versus the truth I was taught.  But I refuse for someone to tell me how and when to live and if you have a job that’s the life you choose.  If you feel like that’s not true then take a vacation with no vacation days left and you will quickly learn that you cannot live when you want.  You choose the life you want to live or choose the excuses you want to utilize to convince you not to live the life you want to live.  Either way I don’t do vacation days I do “whenever I feel like it” days.

The Pyramid Scheme that starts Pyramid Schemes.

So, me being the ain’t shit dude that I am, I was joking about all the fly ass pyramid companies that lock you in a room and try to convince you that you will be free for life and retire at 20 if you sell this shit to your family.  Pretty much, if you not a top person in that shit you not bout to get paid. 

Catching a flight to Miami a few weeks ago, I read a story on crowd sourcing and how they tax it.  Pretty much, people buy shares in a company that hasn’t been created yet. Then, the company is built off all the people giving money because they believe in the product. These people own shares in the company before it even starts.  One memory I have of college or high school - not sure which one those were my get high and drive fast days - was the benefits of a partnership and the ease of establishment. 

Now, I may sound like I’m all over the place, but be patient – I am bringing it full circle. 

Most people don’t know what I do, and half the time I don’t even know what I do, but my main source of income is a website company and a travel agency.  Part of what I do with my web company is talk to a lot of young hopefuls with aspirations of starting a super site with $100 and a dream.  One thing I’ve learned in business is I am winning cause I put up the money to turn a dream into a reality.  I don’t give a damn about how much it is - if I don’t make it, people will never support it.  In the beginning, I would try throwing trips with others but they were either side tracked or didn’t see the dream.  Problem is, these people and I weren’t like minded.  Winning is a mindset. Imagine if you took 5 like minded girls with the same dream of starting an online boutique and the success they would make.  We all see how Instagram sells for 2 billion dollars and we wish that was us, but we don’t see how he prolly maxed out his credit cards to make it happen.  Winning has zero comfort i.e. maxing cards, losing friends, losing lovers etc.

So I came up with this idea: Why not partner with someone who has the skills and believes in the dream?  My life got 1,000 times easier and Jesus shined on me the day He sent me my assistant. I will make much more money than when I was doing shit on my own.  Take 5 people: sales, administration, marketing, operations, and money man. You get these 5 people together, setup a structure, and split all costs 5 ways. You got 5 rich people in the next 3 years. 

Let’s look at some basic rules:

Rules of This Shit

1. Everyone is appointed a job that needs to be done by a deadline. If they can’t get it done, they give update as to why -  cause shit happens.
2. Meetings are mandatory. Shit happens, but it don’t happen that often.
3. Everything that costs, is split evenly and voted on.  If 3 out of 5 vote for it, put up the money or you’re out.
4. If you go more than a month inactive you’re out completely and someone else is brought in at a lower rate cause they weren’t there in the beginning.
5. We all report to someone more knowledgeable than us as a mediator and major decision maker whos decisions are final.
6. Book club includes books that will move the company forward.  We all read the same damn book.
7. Everything works in harmony.  You mess up the harmony and you gotta go.  Judas messed up the harmony Jesus had and it got him crucified.

I left a few rules out, but ya’ll get the drift. Do ya’ll have any idea how soon you can establish and gain growth with such a way to move forward?  We get so bent on our own ideas.  The graveyard is the richest place in the world cause its full of great ideas that died.  If you’re smart do this, take the profit, then start your own shit.  One thing I learned about working in the corporate world is the structure is sound but the management just wasn’t worth the shit.  Egos get in the way and people start thinking they know too much.  If you knew all that you would already be the shit.  I don’t have any partners cause I got tired of waiting on people and decided I would be the shit whether I had a partner or not, but this is before I had this idea.  You lazies want a pyramid scheme? Its bullshit and doesn’t exist.  You wanna hit the lottery? Its bullshit and doesn’t exist. You say one day you will make it happen? I watched my grandmother die talking about a “one day” that never came. In all honesty, I’m watching people around that I know will die and never see their “one day”.  We buy heels, cars, and Gucci belts before we buy into our own damn dream. Ok, real talk, I’m guilty on the Gucci belt, but I ain’t buy it - my cruise check did.  I ain’t here to control your life, but you bullshittin’ if you think one day will come. Here is a structure you can make it happen and make serious money within 2 years.  As long as everybody is doing their job - the company propels. 

If you’re serious, I will piece all y’all asses together and make it happen.  I may even partner in a few of them just to keep me busy.  Email lewis@ihustlenation.com